do u like me?

jz now... he was asking me... "u ske i x?"... what do u expect me to answer? oh my GOD... do give me the strentgh... i hv to answer NO... but... the reality is "YES. i LIKE u!!!" don't ever telling 'the one' the truth... jz keep it inside u forever n ever... let 'the one' has a wonderful life with his gurl...

hypocrite!!!

ijenie such a hypocrite person!!! y??? in front of 'the one', u kept on gave support, advices. but the truth is u were crying inside.

i jz want to c them hepily ever after. i didn't hv any 'hak' to tell the truth. i jz want to keep inside. let me cry, cry n cry by myself. don't ever telling the truth.

'the one' didn't hv any feelings towards u!!! come on. don't be such a jerk, gurl. wake up!!!

May GOD Bless me n them. amiiinnnn...

Kau Ada Dia

Sudah lama ku memendam rasa

Cinta di dalam dada

Namun tidak pernah bersuara

Kerana takut kecewa

Ku tunggu waktu yang lebih baik

Untuk langkah pertama

Jauh dari apa yang ku kira

Hatimu ada yang punya

Di dalam mimpi kita berdua

Mesra bersama dilamun cinta

Oh tetapi kenyataannya aku sedar kau ada dia

Mungkin juga semuanya salah ku

Terlalu mengharapkan cinta

Tapi sepi yang merasuk kalbu

Membawa angan melayang

now deheartyIJENIE

olaaa... it has been a long long time didn't 'luahkn' what's wrong n what's gud bout me... this 2,3 months i had a complicated prob... it's bout my deepest feeling... i need someone to talk to... but there is nobody here... i don't want to be pressured wit those feeling... almost every nite i kept on dreaming such a 'mengarut' things... YA ALLAH, do giv me the strengths... so that i won't be down jz simply like that... there are a lot of things waiting for me to settle down...

bout the feeling, i don't know whether i can stand it or not... i've been caught into _ _ _ _... but i am sure 'the one' didn't know my feeling and i'm also don't want 'the one' to know bout it... i don't want to lose 'the one'... i was very hepi when i was wit 'the one'... laugh, laugh n laugh... i think it's not gud for me to keep on thinking bout that... "ijenie, plz do not sooo hopeful... if so, it's going to 'kill' u... understand???"...

someone plz advising me what am i suppose to do... plz, plz n plz... every time after pray, i am asking GOD to giv 'us' the 'way', 'pjgkn' our relationship n make 'our' deals become easier...

"YA ALLAH YA TUHANKU, SEKIRANYA DIA ADALAH JODOHKU DEKATKANLAH HATIKU DENGAN HATINYA, PERMUDAHKANLAH URUSANKU DENGAN URUSANNYA"... Ammiiinnnn...

aimysitter

sem break was already started. haizzzzzz... what to do? nothing at all. i hv to take care of my little aimy. it's kind of babysitter la kn. jz 'dodoi' n 'susu' aimy only. the rest my mamita handle it. hehehe. aimy is a gud gurl. not alwiz 'meragam'. thank God. ermmm. i think that is it. till then. chow!!!

i am looking for.......

olaaaa. lately i was so bz with assignments n studying for the final jz around the corner. this sem i think i am too lazy compared to last sem. 'main2' all the time. haizzzzz.

this 2,3 days i felt so down. i dunno y. i need to find the 'brightness', 'strenght', 'confidence, n etc. i couldn't concentrate without all those things. help meeeeeeeeee. wake up!!!

there is 1 more thing in my head. y hv u running away from me? ans me. i hv been telling so much reasons but i want the real truth. this q affected half of my brain. headache2. @#$%&. i can't stand this anymore. finally, my tears came down last nite. damn it!!! ijenie, don't be such a loser!!! come on!!! a lot of things are waiting for u in the future. think bout mamita, wan, abe, k'su n little aimy of course.

may GOD bless me n all of u. do pray for my happiness. choww!! :-)

nite dreaming :-)

last nite i was dreaming such a cool, sweet, n nice story. it was all bout my feeling n my future. hope it will be come true 1 day. i will pray for the GOD to make my daily life easier day to day. amin. amin. amin. ^_^